I have to be honest...

I'm not sure why, but lately I've been pretty off of music. I don't know if it's due to working so much and being so constantly exhausted, or growing up faster than I'd like to and becoming jaded, or a combination of both. Lately everything I listen to either bores me to the point of turning it off, or makes me outright cringe. This whole situation upsets me more than I can textually explain. I start to feel like I've lost myself- since when am I not interested in music? It's the most important thing in my life. If I don't have that, what do I have?

I'm bored with everything on my iPod, and everything on the radio sounds the goddamn same... and it's awful shit. I feel like I don't even know how to play my guitar anymore. I pick it up and I don't know what to do with it. I don't even remember how to play my own songs.

I've now been at my job for over 10 months and I'm more miserable and jaded than ever. Every "musician" that I work with is exactly what I consider to not be a musician and everything I never want to be. Egotistical, competitive, arrogant, irresponsible, immature (not to mention a hillbilly). In my opinion, being a musician is not a hobby- it's a career. Until the day that playing music becomes you're full time job, you are not a musician- just a wannabe. But everyone has to start somewhere I suppose. Maybe these inbred pig farmers that I call co-workers are what have left such a tainted taste in my mouth.

Tonight while goofing about on the internet, I decided to give my iTunes playlist another chance to sweep me off my feet. I started with the song "Little Hell" by City and Colour, which I absolutely love and put the shuffle setting on. As much as I love "Little Hell" it still didn't make me feel anything.
Finally the song "Paper Wings" by Rise Against came on and for the first time in several months I got goosebumps. I immediately turned off shuffle and put on the Siren Song For The Counter Culture album. Front to back. I'm in love. Again. It's literally the perfect record. It feels good to be me.

It's All About The Little Things

1 cup of peanut butter + 1/2 a cup of sugar + 1 egg = 3 days of snack induced smiles

Always....

A truly great song can be stripped down to nothing and still give you shivers.

This week in music: March 29 - April 5

I love new music. So much has happened in the world of my bands this week. Yes, my bands. That's what I call them. My faves. My heros. The guys I've grown up listening to and will forever love. There is something though. Some love-blinding vice that makes you oblivious and in complete denial when something you have so much admiration for lets you down.



Sum 41 has been a favourite of mine since I was 8. That's 10 years going strong. That's the longest I've ever been in love with a certain band. In fact, I remember as if it was yesterday being 8 and wanting All Killer No Filler more than anything in the world. My mom refused to buy it for me because Sum 41 was not a boyband like *Nsync or Backstreet Boys. They were "punks" and "hoodlems" and their music was "loud and noisey" and had "bad words". So being my defient self, I called my dad and had him drop it off at my house. Ahh the joys of devorced parents. I remember the Sam The Record Man bag and everything.
Well last Tuesday album #6 dropped and I was beyond excited. I felt like a little kid again as I imagined the spikey-haired Whibley and his synchronized pop-punk jumps.
Screaming Bloody Murder sounds like Patrick Stump and James Hetfield fucked and popped out a retarded little baby. I don't hate it, but I can't love it. Attn Deryck Whibley: You are not John Legend. Lose the fucking piano. Xoxo Nicole


Long awaited. Solid. That's all I got for now as I am giving it a first listen as I type this. I do really like that they leaked it themselves and I'm not stuck with some shotty copy. Now tour goddamnit.


City And Colour leaked the first single "Fragile Bird" off the upcoming album Little Hell today. You all know how much I love Dallas Green's music but I can't stop picturing the Black Keys when I listen to it. See for yourself here.

R.I.P.